I'm doing this to distract myself

-I get randoms spasms of pain in my body.
-I hate couples cause I'm jealous.
-I feel too old to be 16
-my joints crack frequently. No, most of the time it doesn't hurt.
-I don't judge, I make assumptions that I wont act upon until proven correct.
-I wish I was a superhero
-I'm a secret keeper.
-I wish I had green eyes
-I feel boring a lot
-The only reason I'm a bad girlfriend is because I don't want to express affection to people 'm not really in love with, cause it would lead them on, and when I want to break up, they don't have to go "wtf?"
-Trust me, if I ever do fall in love, this boy will be showered with affection. ;)
-I'm not bothered by my weight, pur say, if I knew it was all muscle, that number would not bother me at all, but it's not, so bleh.
-I freak out without music
-I'm so insanely lonely that I can hardly stand it.
-I find myself incapacitated sometimes because of my depression...


that's it for now...

not again

damnit, my parents are fighting again. D:

I'm so scared....

forgeting all the hurt inside you've learned to hide so well

I feel like such an empty thing sometimes. There's no passion in my life. I'm sick and tired of being sick and tired. Am I just being over dramatic? Is it possible that I'm throwing it all out of proportion?

I don't know what to do with these thoughts...they wont leave me alone.

I dislike this loneliness

mechanical lullaby

Right, well there's just nothing like multiple menal break downs. I'm pathetic.

IALMOSTGOTFUCKINGBACKKSTAGEPASSESTOPARAMORE!!!!!!!!!!! Honestly, I could just kill myself. Right, I have this friend, and he works for livenation, and He was gonna get a backstage pas for my friend Aisha. But she didn't want to go by herself, so she was gonna give it to me. Just when I though I was gonna get it, my other friend tells me that her name is already on it! FUCKMYLIFE!

OH!!! And even better! Her parents probably wont let her go anyways cause she'd be by herself!!!

FUCKKKMEEEESIDEWAYSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Honestly, could my luck really be that bad?

T_T Sooo cloosseee

steal my romance

I'm so sick and tired of feeling so alone all the time. I don't know much more of this I can take. I'm so desperate for someone to talk to...

parents

irritate me to no end.

Assholes

depression sucks

this is one of those photos where the person in it doesn't have to act to get the right emotion.

pay the price

I hate getting compliments as much as I feel so very flattered as well

I'm not pretty. My top lip is thin, and I have dark circles that don't go away no matter how much sleep I get. I hate getting on the scale. The number wouldn't bother me if I knew it was all muscle.

And when people do compliment me, it's almost as if I'm being lied to. I see nothing alluring about myself, why would anyone else?

It's a good thing no one reads this.

someone's gone back on their word

Sometimes I'm so sick of living in this household. I feel like I have nothing in comment with the rest of my family. I feel bad for wanting to ditch out as soon as I'm old enough, but I'm tired of dealing with all this irritation.

I miss having friends. I miss having people to talk to. I hate whining on here all the time. There's nothing else to talk about, nothing ever happens in my life. I'm a pathetic excuse for a person.