father of mine

my dad.

yeah, he can kiss my ass.

Unwell.

All day, staring at the celing making
friends with shadows on my wall
all night, hearing voices telling me that
I should get some sleep
because tomorrow might be good for something

hold on
feeling like I'm heading for a
break down
and I don't know why

but I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
but stay a while, and maybe tehn you''ll see
a differnet side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impared
I know, right now, you don't care
but soon enough, you're gonna think of me
and how I used to be

Me.
Talking to myself in public
and dodging glances on te train
and I know,
I know they've all been talking about me
I can hear them whisper
and it makes me think there must be something wrong

with me
out of all the hours thinking
somehow
I've lost my mind.

but I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
but stay a while, and maybe then you''ll see
a different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now, you don't care
but soon enough, you're gonna think of me
and how I used to be.

I've been talking in my sleep
pretty soon they'll come to get me.
they'll be taking me away


but I'm not crazy
I'm just a little unwell
I know, right now you can't tell
but stay a while, and maybe then you''ll see
a different side of me
I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired
I know, right now, you don't care
but soon enough, you're gonna think of me
and how I used to be.

Matchbox Twenty - Unwell.

the music I listen to will generally tell you what I'm feeling.

this is screaming

Hmm, some things kinda fixed themselves, but dad is strill losing his buissness and I still have an F in Chemistry and a D in Geometry and I'm always sweating to death at night, and I had to write a 5 page script by myself just to get it done on time.

Gosh, listen to me complain, I'm like a 4 year old.

And I'm always tired now.

* sigh* this'll be a great christmas. :(

Anywas, rehersals have been cancled, thank god. Christmas break is after next week, so It'll be nice to not have to go to school for two weeks.

I HATE WAITING AT THE LIBRARY!!! It's soooo boring!!! everytime I have to stay after school, I have to wait at teh library. rjhgjkfdghjkfdgkfdbhgjkdfbhkjfdbhgkjfdbgkjdg.

I hate life.

How many times have I ended my blogs like that now-a-days?

:[

Monday night - rehearsals
Tuesday night - Work on video project for Leadership
Wednesday night - rehearsals
Thursday - I after school study session for Chem
Friday - maybe rehearsals.

That and then freggin school principal is a BITCH and shut down our whole fashion show Idea for the Community service project, so now we have absolutly NOTHING after all that work!!!!!!!

I'm about to lose my bloody mind!!!!!!

Oh, yeah, I forgot to say. I broke up with my boyfriend, hahaha I'm such an awful girlfriend.

I hate my life.

hey moon

life's tolerable again. I have an F in chemistry and a D in geometry :( But I shadowed a hair stylist on Friday, and they gave me money for helping out in the salon (against my protests), then I went to the park with Courtney and Lauren, and took an insane amount of crazy pictures.




After that, we went to Lauren's house and watched some of "closer". (that's our movie, hahahah).
The next day I went to the mall and bought a new wallet and bag.

I'm probably gonna do laundry and clean my room today. And do my geometry homework.

don't bother.

"It's true we're all a little insane, but it's so clear now that I'm unchained"

every time things get tolerable

something goes wrong again.

I'm beginning to think I wont make it through High school with my sanity in tact.

I hate my life.