pick my heart up off the floor.

Hurg. Lilith pretty much confirmed that it was clinical depression. Wonderful. Doesn't really change anything though. I refuse to see a shrink, and I will not take ADs.
I have been feeling a little better though this week, Despite the fact that none of my "friends" have made ANY contact with me over break. Fuckers. I made a new online friend, and he's really nice.
My online friends are better than most of my school friends. Am I the only one who sees a problem here? Ah well, it's nice to actually have someone to talk to again.
Fuck my computer. It needs to rot in hell.
The damn thing wont work. It wont start up. We don't know what's wrong with it. UHG!!!!!!!! I am so fucking sick of my computers never fucking working for me. I have gone through five fucking hard drives, it's crashed four fucking times, and even now it wont fucking work, after my dad has spent all the fucking time he's willing to fucking spend on the stupid piece of shit. So now I'm stuck using my mom's computer. And P.S. She's using it most of the time she's home!
and of course it' all my fault!! *sarcasm*At least in dad's head. Uhg. I didn't do anything to it, how could I have possibly broken it. And now he just, wont help me anymore. Bastard.
Uhhhgggg!! I don't wanna go back to school. I'll be unhappy again!! :(
Cause there's nothing more fun than sitting by yourself watching your "friends" have fun.