glitz-and-glamour web of secrets and lies

I can't sleep.
I've no idea why, I mean, I almost died this afternoon when I laid down.
I've started reading "I Was a Teenage Fairy: by Francesca Lia Block. I'd forgotten how much I love her books. I'll probably do a drawing of Mab sometime soon.

I wish I could lose weight. Yeah, I know, I'm skinny, everyone yells at me when I mention my weight, shut up. But honestly, I think I look awful in a bikini
-Shut up Renn, you're skinny, you have great legs(so I've been told)
Why don't you shut up? We have, in fact, looked in a mirror lately, and I'm not blind.
-You know what, the next time I hear you bag on us, I'mma...do something, I dunno, you're self-confidence sucks at life.
You suck at life. Why am I having a conversation with myself?
-There's no one else to talk to. Besides, you get all the answers you want.
Negatory, What kind of person likes telling themselves to shut up?
-A freak. Like you.
I agree with the freak part.
-You should go to bed.
I should, I have school tomorrow. But I suddenly want to clean my room. But It wont stay clean.
-Well, you'll have something to do when you want to clean your room again.
My tooth hurts again.
-Take some aspirin
I did
-Then quit bitching.
You're awfully mean for some that's me.
-Maybe you're just mean.
Maybe I am... I dunno, I don't talk to most people like I'm talking to myself now.
-You know, anyone who reads this is going to think you're insane.
So? Maybe I am insane. Besides, no one reads this.
-You're not insane, insane people don't have rules. You have many.
Wish I didn't.
-Shut up stupid, go to bed.
Muhh, fine!

Wooowww, I should get help.